its my last monday for a long while. i leave on saturday around noon. i'm looking forward to the 6 1/2 hr long drive i get to make, following my parents so i know the way and have transportation. i wonder how many miles away it is? it will be fun, if fun is driving FOREVER!!!

Eddie canceled training tomorrow night, i'm very upset by this. i won't get to see him til probably christmas. i'm going to miss him much, hes a great coach and an even better guy. i did get to talk to him briefly on the phone, wished me luck and stuff. it made me really sad.

i knew this time would be very hard... saying my byes and all. i just have to remember that its not the end of my life, its just a new chapter and it doesn't mean i can't see them anymore.

its so weird. i'm so damn excited and scared and confused. i can't phathom how fucking weird its going to be on my own, 6 hours from home.

i g2g, got some laundry to go through. yippee!